Happy.

I feel like I'm starting to be happy again. It's been too long. I'm normally a happy person, but I haven't felt like I've had a lot to be happy for. Thankful? Yes. I know I'm truly blessed to have the life I do (totally amazing family, close friends, etc.), but I just haven't felt happy (kind of like when your smile doesn't reach your eyes). I'm not depressed or unhappy, I'm just not HAPPY. I'm getting there again, just not there yet.
What does it take to regain your happiness? I can think of a few things that I feel like would make me happy again, but I don't want to be one of those people that always want more to be satisfied.
Seriously though, How can I become happy again? What will it take for me to become myself?

Relief.

That moment where you decide to let God take over certain aspects of your life, namely a certain guy you REALLY like (way more than a kiddie crush), and you feel this peace that you didn't know existed. OMG. 

Yeah... I met this guy and I don't know how to describe him, he's so unlike any guy I've met before. He's so totally amazing and I could really see myself falling for him rather easily. We spent quite a bit of time together a few weeks ago and talked a lot. And then there was nothing. No texts, no Facebook, nothing. I don't get it. He basically started ignoring me. I mean I know life gets busy, but seriously? I didn't say/do anything to cause this. 

Anyways... I realized that if he's not the man God has for me, I sure am wasting a lot of time dreaming about this guy. I seriously like this guy, but I'm not going to sit around mope if he doesn't see what he's missing. :) 

God seriously got a hold of me yesterday and sort of kicked me in the pants. If it's supposed to happen, it will. I can't do one thing about it. Keep living.

What a relief. I don't have to worry about it anymore.