Excitement.

In less than 8 hours, I will be hitting the road for the most amazing summer ever. I'm going to be the kamp nurse at Kids Across America for the next 6 weeks and will be dealing with kids from 12-15 and I am so excited! Ever since last summer, I've known God was calling me to go back to KAA. Kamp life is like no other. My life was changed so much last summer and I can't wait to see what happens this summer! I've been looking forward to this day since last August. God works in the lives of the kids there and it's so amazing to see the transformation. The next 6 weeks will be life-changing. I'm so excited I can't fall asleep!

Future - Part 2

This is more of an update than anything. I passed. I am now an official nurse. Like complete with the additional letters after my name and everything. I can now tell people "oh, I'm a nurse" when they ask what I do. You don't know how much that means to me. 

This is proof that God really does care about the small things in life. He gave me the desire to be a nurse, helped me through years of GRUELING school, and helped me pass the worst test of my life. If this isn't proof that He loves us and is here for us, I don't know what would. There is no way I could've made it without Him. 

Future.

So I've been debating on writing this post or not. I've decided that it really doesn't matter either way, so I'm going to write it. Tomorrow is probably the most important day of my life up until now. I take the NCLEX, the State Board of Nursing Licensing Exam, which is only the most important test of my career. This post almost wasn't written because there's that chance that I could fail it and then all of my friends would know, and my family would think I'm a complete and total moron, but then I wouldn't have a totally awesome testimony of how God worked in my life. 

At church yesterday, the pastor talked about how if God gives you a vision, he'll equip you with what you need to accomplish that goal. God has given me the desire and the passion to be a nurse, so tomorrow, when I'm in the middle of my test, I know that He is with me and in control of my outcome. I have prepared for years for this exam, I know (most of) the material, and I know that God is going with me into this test. 

"... with God, all things are possible." Matt. 19:26

Isn't it funny? 

With God, the future seems much less daunting.

Going.

There is so much I want to say right now, but I'm just going to try and say what is on my heart. I'm done. I'm done trying to please other people. I'm done trying to be what everyone wants me to be. I'm done trying to be the daughter/sister/friend my family/friends wants me to be. I'm done trying. It's time to start going. I am going to be who I want to be. I am going to do what makes me happy. I am going to spend time with people that enrich my life instead of tear my life apart. I am going to be happy. I've challenged myself to rid my life of everything that is toxic (including people) and that is stopping me from reaching my full potential. You have my apologies if this offends you, but maybe you need to stop and think why you find it offensive.
My chest feels so much lighter after I've typed this. Please, join me in this next phase of my life. Get rid of the toxic waste that is weighing you down. What have you got to lose?