Ready.

Again, I should be doing homework, but apparently my best thoughts come to me when I'm supposed to be doing something important.

Wow. There is so much meaning in such a small word. At least in this instance it is. I am shocked by how much God has done in my heart in the past few days. I am so calm about my future love life right now that it scares me. Yes, the desire to have a "someone special" is still there (and as strong as ever), but the urgency seems to have faded. I'm no longer in a rush to get to the next stage. Yes, I'm balling my eyes out as I type this, but it's a good kind of cry. A much needed cry. My heart is calm. No longer am I crushing over someone that doesn't want me. This ship has sailed. I'm ready for a full heart.  I'm ready to be madly in love with a God that created me to love.
I'm ready to be ready.
I'm ready to be single.